dreaming

today i have such a bad dream o good dream i don know...i dreaming i go to cinema with my auntie,and the cinema is worst...its small and only got one room...its on the second floor... and i met her there( i try to memorized izzit i have already call her to there or we met at there but i jus cant remember),and when we find our sit, suddenly 2-3 unknown auntie frens come to join us and my auntie introduce to them to me,she din sit beside me and she sit at the back roll of mine with my auntie frens, the room is weird in front of the cinema there is a screen and backside of the room there's also a movie theres 2 screen inside one room... and i don know why i will go to cinema with my auntie...and suddenly i don know why i sit in front near the front screen of the cinema maybe i like that movie more? but thats not a movie..2 of them jus like smth like astro...weird dream...and when i go back find them i found that they all dissapear...and i go out the cinema and call her...suddenly i saw one of my high school fren,she so urgent boro the phone from me and i haven finish the phone...and i call her my auntie pick up the phone..she told me her watch is spoil she repairing at the shop below the cinema...and i wake up....

i trust every dreams there is a meaning...i wonder who can tell me that meaning?i jus can guess..and it is seldom that i can see and feel the dream goes so true...like inside the real life...

feel a little bit sour and sad today!

today i went to my college..i miss my 1st class coz i go to my best friends house and we talk bout stories when we are at 15-17...its so happy..long time i din so happy b4 already..till 3am in the morning then i go home...the class is about 10am in the morning...i cant wake up and the weather is rainy make me wanna sleep more...and i have a nice dream last night..bout wad dream..shhhh..secret hahas....i skip a sem in my college and when i come back i find lots of things change...i belive im a friendly guy...to everyone...i like to make jokes...i like to see my friends happy...but maybe i make them frustrated sometimes...i got a very very lovely friend in my college..is a lady..shes quite cute...and lovely...for me shes totally perfect...she take care of other ppl feeling and she make me really did like i wanna take her like my sis...i can swear that if anything she need help i would never reject...coz she help me quite a lot when last sem...shes my best buddy...sometimes she is not willing to do the things i want her to do...but she stil make it at last..i seldom saw a girl like her...but now...in the new semester...seems smth goes wrong...i think she a little bit angry with me...and she seems walking away from me anyway...i like to say her stupid..last time she wont angry at all and she also will say herself :"ya im stupid"...i like to play around with her when talk with her i feel happy...and now...she change or i change i dono...but i feel hurt when she not very good with me like last time that we are...maybe she got more friends already...i thot between the relationship i with her...we can always play around and wont angry with each other...i ever ask her...:"why i force you do smth or jus insult you,and you wont get angry with me at all?" she said:"why do i have to get angry?"that word makes me feel warm...i really don wish to lost my best buddys...i wish her come back like the way last time...it feels hurt when she treat me bad anyway...i don know wad can i say to her...should i say straight to her...or she wan a apologize for i too bullying her?if i really apologize thats means she just a normal friends to me anymore...but another best friend of mine is still very nice with me...and for the one i ever love..i just dono how to start a conversation...maybe i really jus escaping smth from myself....and for my best buddys in college..like my love one say maybe she got bf...but as long as i know her...shes not the girl like dat...i believe in myself...lost a lover lost a best friend...wad i have to lost next?tell me?lord of god...don play with me...is it hard to find a best friend...

Brother.

Brother you are my brother,
brother...
you never can escape anything in front of my eyes..
im not a stupid person you can fool me around...
brother...
i am a good actor...
you just don act and give any reason in front of me...
because that's me..not the others...
brother...
u know things more than others about me...
i appreciate you because i take u as my good brother...
brother...
my silence wish you make the things go allright...
because i really don wan to lost a brother like you...
brother...
i know you for almost 8 years...
i am already a bacteria inside your body...
whats your next step i know even clear than your parents...
brother...
you have feel my feel..
if you really wanna did the same things to me..
brother...
i wish we stil brother when we reborn again in this world..
never say sorry when its too late...
because i don really like dat word...
think b4 you do it...
or u'll hurt me.
Here's a song for my brother..
i don wish one day we will become like this..

Christmas..

yucks kuching ppl like shit...one table screw 20 ppl...aduhai..although yesterday christmas is just normal but i quite happy..coz i drunk haha...long time no drunk liao..the 1st time i bring my sis go pub...hahas she quite happy...and her friends so hot @.@"...now i should stable now...no event i don want go to drink anymore..what a waste...nowadays...bad boy gone good and good girl gone bad..last night..i see all my friend...remind me...i bring them to pub in the 1st time when they are still pure...and slowly they bring others...and slowly i saw my friend one by one smoking...and im the 1st one smoke among them...i wish they can turn back...coz don continue wad i have walk true..

What Goes Around Comes Back Around.

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your han
I just can't seem to understand
So why your love went away
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Can you tell me is this fair?
Just so confused about it
Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?

Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
What goes around comes around
You should know that
Don't want to think about it (no)
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Music
Let me paint this picture for you, baby
You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes
You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved
And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right
But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around
I thought I told ya, hey
See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Beacause
(What goes around comes back around)

A touch song for man.

today i go for my boss wedding.and they are so sweet.remind me...a song..that i don wish to sing..and this song..i think everyman should listen to it...when it happens...u can sing it as loud as u can..and this song...is 25 minutes...the lyrics say..if he earlier 25 minutes..maybe things will change..what a cruel fate..

it's a story just a story.

A man just work and tired just get home...and what all his mind thinking is to tell his love one bout things happenning today...he happily call her phone...wish to hear her sound..bt there's no one answering...then quite dissapointed..and he hang off the phone...and trying to call his best friend for going out..for lowering the stress at work..while he was on the phone..his love one call in...the music is so memerized...when he just want to start the conversation...a very dislike question asking him.."you call me for wad?"..he was shock...since a very very long time..he never heard this sentence is said by her...he jus very angry...just he straightly feel close the conversation better..no need say any story bout wad he had experience today..he just make a reason..to close the conversation...very good...he just wish his best friend can make him better...he call his best friend after that..call him go out for movie and with some others friends..he decided to drive car to his best friend house..and use his car to cinema...when he reach his best friends house..he was just playing games and haven get ready...he quickly call him get rdy for it...his best friend go to bath...while he was at outside...he just playing at his friends handphone...what he saw...make him cold..really cold...he treat his best friends as brother...so no matter wad happenning he tell himself...we are brother!...and he start playing at his computer...he jus go in friendster website...and straightly go inside his best friend page...without log out...and he just looking around...but when he accidentally click on msg part...all his brain is blank..black out suddenly....the anger sudden coming up...he lost control...start yelling at his best friend name...he jus go in his room...and lock up the door...his best friend mum was shock when he shouting loud...inside the room...he is soo sad...but not angry...he just take off his spectacles...he just dunno wad is his emotion now...when he try to cool down...he take a can of beer...and his thinking messing up in a piece...he keep asking himself a few question..."am i still loving her?" "if not why am i emotional suddenly?" "i totally trust my best friend." "but what i see?" As long as he know...his love one change a lot...is not the one that he love...then why?he is just already tired...he start to decided...strongly for his own good...he don wanna know...if he don know anything..there will be nothing in his mind...today is the last call he will call...he will only call her when there's something that important to tell her...or need her help...and he decided to write a blog to tell her.

It's my story beautiful? hope YOU like it.